Thursday, August 28, 2008

who am i

*long sigh.......

i don't know what's happening to me. i feel so so sad today. i can't help it. it's as if there's something heavy in my heart and i can't identify what it is or where did it came from. i don't know if i'm just the one who brought it upon myself. maybe....

*long sigh........

after few days, i can't still keep my mind off on some of my worries. i keep telling my self to stop worrying because it doesn't have good effect on me.

*long sigh........



SINGING......

Who Am I Lyrics
Casting Crowns

Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart.

Bridge:
Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again.
Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.


I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.

Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.


I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

I am yours.

Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?
'Cause I am yours.
I am yours.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

....worried sick....

Two nights ago, I was worried sick about anything - lovelife, my future life, financial state, what's going to happen tomorrow, will it be okay, these and that! I was so worried I couldn't sleep the whole night. It's as if I couldn't understand my self - definitely I'm not in my usual self that night.

When I woke up in the morning, I felt I hadn't slept at all. I tried real hard to get my sleep even the sun came out already but with no success. No choice, I got out of bed. Tried every possiblest activity to ease my mind. At last, I found one! I read and read to rest my mind, and somewhat it worked ( I guess that's not a good idea to rest my mind..but that's just like me). Anyway, I got through. Once eased up, I got to one of the causes that's stressing me. Well, thank God, I was able to solve it. There's always a rainbow after the rain, indeed.

In the end, although the majority of my worries was solved, maybe, due to stress and fatigue, I am now sick. He-he. Next time, I really hope so, I would be able to apply this:

Matthew 6:34
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Whew!